"So what's it like to be on Kratom every day?"
I heard this from a few people. The honest answer is, sometimes I feel like I'm cheating. I've said that before. I know, as an addict, dependency on any substance is dangerous.
"So why don't you just quit?"
Same reason you don't stop taking the medication your doctor prescribes just because you feel better. Anxiety is a fickle beast. I can be stressed to the max, and just have a smoke break and be fine. Sometimes, I'll wake up in the morning and my heart is beating out of my chest. Continuous use is literally is the only thing keeping me composed at times.
"You miss pills?"
Fuckin' A right I do. Know what I don't miss? Nodding out on my friends, scaring the hell out of them. Having stomach pains so bad I was in tears. Forgetting entire nights because I drank with the pills. Having the girl I love feel like I didn't want her because I was unable to get aroused.
"You're still addicted to something."
Oh, thanks. Tell me more about the Lexapro and Xanax you take during the day, and the Ambien you take to sleep. Better yet, tell me about the Adderall you give your child everyday before school.
I've been thinking about doing an AMA on reddit. Let me know if you have any hard to ask questions. I'll do my best!
Thanks for all the support guys. I'm sorry I haven't been active. Even Kratom can't help when you're just in a personal rut. On a positive note, tomorrow could be a real game changer for me. Have a chance at an awesome job that will allow me to do so much more with Kratom. I've gotten several strains from different vendors, and I think I've found the perfect mixture. Join the FB page and hit me up. I'll be happy to share!!
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